Alan William Blount

In the most loving and sweetest memory of my beautiful, darling boyfriend, Alan. Taken from me while still so young and full of energy. Missed every second of everyday for eternity. The love of my life, irreplacable and always in my heart. I love and miss you so much Lamby.

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Alan was really funny, we laughed all the time. He was the most loyal person you could ever meet, he'd do anything for me, his family and his friends. He was so passionate, when he loved, it was deeply and you never doubted it. He loved to party, go to Strathclyde Park and go on all the rides and he loved Glasgow Rangers although was the first to admit it was for the football tops and songs rather than the football, which he wasnt really in to. He loved Oasis, Babyshambles and The Libertines mostly but would listen to any music as long as it wasnt girly. There are very few songs that dont remind me of him. He was a window cleaner, which he enjoyed, he wanted to get his own run once he had his drivers licience. He sang a lot, our house was very musical and if he was drunk, he'd dance as well. He loved his Playstation and his gangster games, he liked gangster films and horrors and we watched so many films together. Alan was a man's man, his opinions were definate and he was everything to me. I could write all day about his intrests and favourite things but if you knew him, you already know.


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Lamby, I write you poems all the time and hope that you read them even though you hate reading! You always did like it when I wrote you letters so I'll continue to do so.

For My Lamby....

Living inside an empty shell,
supposedly on earth but really in hell,
crying and dying from the inside out,
full of fear and uneasy doubt,
missing you more and more with every second,
much more than you could ever have rekoned,
missing your love, your kiss, your smile,
being with you everyday made my life worthwhile,
knowing I could meet the whole human race,
and never come close to filling your space,
your side of bed now not seeming right,
stroking your pillow all through the night,
looking at pictures of when we were together,
feeling such hurt it wasnt forever,
watching videos of you dance and sing,
missing the warm feelings you always did bring,
begging and praying, hopeless as it seems,
I`ll wake up tomorrow and it was bad dreams,
that you`ll be there when I open my eyes,
and the past months were really all lies,
if I had one wish that I could have true,
it would be to always be with you,
laughing and talking, being so in love,
thats what I`d wish to the star above,
knowing you`d hate to see me depressed,
hoping to God you now are at rest,
Im yours till the day we`re no longer apart,
always my Lamby, you`ll have my heart.

There is now a star in the sky named after you Baby, its yours for eternity, just like I'am. I didn't call it Lamby like I thought I would, I wanted it to honour you properly.

ALAN WILLIAM BLOUNT 1987
Right Ascension - 14h 50m 55.6s
Declination - plus3o 51' 3.6''

The public record is listed in The British Library and is copyrighted with the British Government. I have the certificate for the star and a duplicate copy is stored in a secure location.

We always love being out at night, I remember lying on the grass with you while there were shooting stars above us. I'll never forget our years together, I miss you so much it's unbearable.

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My Baby Lamb....

There isn't a time when you're not in my head,
If you think I'd forget you, you're very misled,
I still see your smile, hear your laugh and your voice,
Wouldn't change that even if I had the choice,
There's no doubt about it, I've far from moved on,
I look at your picture and can't believe that your gone,
You've gone out of my reach, I feel left behind,
Longing for the days our lives were entwined,
They say it gets easier, just give it time,
Speak aloud to you or build you a shrine,
It's not that easy, I'm shocked to the core,
How could this happen to the man I adore,
I try to talk but my head goes so empty,
When you were here I could talk to you plenty,
So much time alone, my thoughts all collide,
Can't deal with this world without you by my side,
Missing you so deeply, all feels so strange,
We were so in love, why did life have to change?

I create this memorial to honour the sweetest man I've ever known, someone who touched me so deeply in the three short years we spent together. More than I ever thought possible. I'm so glad that we never had a day go by in that time that we didn't say 'I love you' and I want to thank you Alan, from the bottom of my heart for loving me as much as you did and for allowing me to be in your life. You suffered in so many needless ways and I know things were so hard for you at times and still you smiled and loved, your my inspriration and I love you more than words could possibly say. I know you got tired baby, you'd just had enough, but you are missed so much more than you ever thought you would be. I just can't say I love you enough times, you gave me everything and Im so lost without you.

Can or ifs....

Can anything change just because it's not fair,
That Im left alone when you were once there,
If I do not accept this, will it make it untrue,
Can I bargain with anyone and if so then who,
If I swear to be good and always play nice,
Can we be given another roll of the dice,
Does anyone out there know a way we can wing it,
To give us more time, just even a minute,
If I beg on my knees with all of my heart,
Can I make it so we were never apart,
If I reach out and hug you as if you are here,
Can I concentrate hard and make you appear,
If I hold your CD and smell your cologne,
Will any of this make you come back home,
Can I say I love you and know you will listen,
Can a broken heart mend when one half is missing,
If I feel you arround me when I'm sitting still,
Is your hand on my shoulder when my eyes start to fill,
When I play you our song are you moved to dance,
Do you know I'd swap places if I had the chance?

Goodnight and Sweet Dreams my Lamby, I know I will see you again soon. xxxxxXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxx

I miss you Lamby.....

I had no idea I could cry so much,
Been sobbing tonight, missing your touch,
Feel the panic rise because you are not here,
Can't get my head round that you are not near,
I miss you my Lamby, the pain won't go away,
Trying to go on knowing I can't see you everyday,
Looking at your picture, my hansome man,
But can't hold you at all, this wasn't our plan,
Remember sitting planning what would be our big day,
Laughing and joking about the vows we would say,
Our bodies cuddled in all through the night,
If one of us moved, the other sensed it wasn't right,
Can't sleep anymore, my heads gone and it shows,
I can picture you clearly from your hair to you toes,
Remember I laughed at your hairy feet, like your dad,
And remember how we'd both cry when one of us was sad,
When I met you I know, God blessed me that day,
But I don't know the reason why He took you away,
Tonight I heard music, the songs that you love,
I hope you could listen from your cloud up above,
My heart feels so heavy, like lead in my chest,
God needed you back because you were the best.


TEDDY BEARS IN HEAVEN

If There Are Teddy Bears In Heaven
Will You Send One Just For Me
So I Can Hold It Close To My Heart
Where You Will Always Be
I Will Take It To My Bed Each Night
As The Angels Tuck Me In
I Will Feel Your Love Surround Me
And Know That i am Holding you
In my Arms Once Again
You Are always “In my Heart”
That Thought Will Help Me Through
I Will Always Remember
My Precious ANGEL
Whose Love Was Honest And True!

In Loving Memory of your precious ANGEL




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Do you make them laugh in heaven,
Does your smile bring them good cheer?
Do you make the sun shine brighter,
Like you did when you were here?

You meant so very much to us,
There's nothing left to say,
Except that without you here
There is no perfect day.

We want to tell you something
So there wont be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.....


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I sit beside my window
I watch the stars above
Searching for my Angel
The one i miss and love

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I wish upon a shooting star
Im missing you so much
Wouldnt it be lovely
To feel an Angels touch

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As i reach out to touch you
My Angel youre not there
For when my time on earth is done
I know youll meet me there

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copyright� Vicky Deaville 22/8/09


Angel's Kiss.

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